Rather Lovely Tuesday

If I could stab me
in the face
through the cheek
in my eye
open my skull
spread my veins

See my blood
gush
ooze
spill
drip
drip
drip

That would be a rather lovely Tuesday.

Goodbye Cruel World … Hello new shoes.

Late last night, my mind wrote my final goodbye.

A letter of love, kissed with a sigh.

This morning, I awoke and craved new shoes…

the note from the night was

p u l v e r i s e d

into a puff of practicality.

#Pain

My pain does not need a hashtag.

But it is taken more seriously when it has one.

Just like a bandaid holds more significance, then a claim of mental torment. Your inner fortitude may burn brightly but only to those who dare to look into the flames.

The human perspective is entirely flawed.

New Dentures

Today I saw a sign.

“Choose Happy”

My heart agrees.

My head is less convinced.

My soul mouth can’t even see the sign through the blackend smoke of its own burning.

Anxiety

The ticking clock booms within the silence of the night.

I cannot hear it over the screaming in my mind.

Thursday Haiku

lethargy, apathy,

severe lack of dopamine.

washing needs folding.

The Torture of Creativity

A piece of me clings to visions of other tortured souls: Mozart, Pollack and Plath — each crazed by a cannibalised brain that told them to leap with ragged, haggard breath and a racing heart that thrummed to a tune of its own design, both discordant and undignified.

But the other side of me wonders: perhaps this is just unfettered creativity?

The process

When i begin art i most like to start with the blindest eye in my heart…

Then down to my gut where my instinct’s clear-cut while my head keeps screaming “Hey, what?!?”

Lucid Hallucinations

Pain surges lifting me toward lucid hallucinations. I ride it like a wave, unable to untie the leg-rope.

Blackout poetry

by nightfall, the house was sound asleep… offset by luxury

He wasn’t lost; surging, spurring unblinkingly, the cold-black dead body was already beaten but seemed untouched.

I know better but am beginning to believe in shadows.